It’s not my story.

As Tim and I have been walking this road since we received Charlotte’s diagnosis in February we have really been seeking the Lord and asking Him to show us His plan in all of this. We have never doubted He had a plan – a leaf doesn’t fall from a tree without God allowing it. And we know that for many this brings many questions about why God would allow this to happen. We know that He allowed it for many reasons – to bring glory to Himself, to grow my faith and Tim’s faith and the faith of our friends and family. I have already been thinking about how I will use this journey in my own ministry in the future.

But God recently reminded me that while this is part of my story and Tim’s story and even Sam’s story, this is really Charlotte’s story. She is the one who already bears the physical scars. She is the one who has to endure the pain of surgery and recovery.

There is certainly pain for Tim and me (and for others who love us and our babies). And there is pain for Sam in being separated from us. There will certainly be more in the future with the subsequent surgeries. And God will, in time, reveal to each of us the purpose for the pain. But I have to be content with knowing that I may never know the full extent of His reasons, at least as far as Charlotte is concerned. You see, it’s her story.

In Book 3 of The Chronicles of Narnia series, entitled The Horse and His Boy, there is a scene that beautifully illustrates this point. The boy, Shasta, and his friend Aravis, had been riding when Aravis was attacked by a lion. The lion later appears to Shasta, who then understands that the lion is Aslan (a representation of Christ in the stories). Aslan explains to Shasta that he has been with him all along. Shasta asks about Aravis:
“Then it was you who wounded Aravis?”
“It was I.”
“But what for?”
“Child,” said the Voice, “I am telling you your story, not hers. I tell no one any story but his own.”

We don’t know why God “wounded” Charlotte. My prayer is that He will reveal His reasons to her as she grows up, and that she will share her story with others. I know that we have been sharing this side of the story with you all, but I know that what we have seen so far is just the back cover of the book. There is so much more to come…

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” Genesis 50:20


10 thoughts on “It’s not my story.

  1. I hope the first comment was from my friend, Tim! Well spoken. We do love you guys and hurt when you hurt. I have so many questions I want to ask when I get to se Him face to face! Dave & Willie

  2. Beautifully stated. I continue to admire your strength and faith, there is a MOPS message in this, consider yourself forewarned, God is going to use your story for His glory!Love you,mama of a soldier

  3. What a perfect illustration for your message.Btw, I looooooove it when Aslan says that. It gave me chills the first time.

  4. I was feeling depressed this morning but when I read Tim’s comment; I felt a big smile spreading across my face and I started laughing ; so he made my day!!Love to all,Gi Gi

  5. Tim and Jenn, I too have been asking and wondering what God's plan is for all of us, but mostly our precious granddaughter, and occassionaly (usually when Charlotte has undergone yet another medical procedure)will wonder "WHY?" her! God then reminds me through a daily reading or verse that ours is not to wonder "why" but to trust and know that through His mercy and goodness love will prevail. So as we continue on this journey of life if our faith remains steadfast and strong we can conquer all our fears and worries through Him who loves us more than we could ever hope for. I am so proud of both you and Tim for your courage and conviction to trust in God's power and know that this cross was not meant for you to carry alone but with the help of His saving grace, mercy, and love. Charlotte is our little miracle and her strength has taught all of us who have been a witness to her pain and suffering that all things are possible to those who love and honor God!Our continued prayers and love to all of you,Mom & Dad

  6. Thanks for this post! Charlotte’s story has already inspired me and others in so many ways, so I can’t wait to see how the rest of it plays out. Love you guys!

  7. Oh, I haven’t read that since way before Maggie was born, but it is so true. These are their stories and I do pray that God chooses to tell them the meaning. I also pray that they understand. Hugs,Faith Mahoneyheart mom to Maggie Jane (HRHS)

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