This.

I was going to write words about all of the feelings, but this passage says it perfectly:

A first child is your own best foot forward, and how you do cheer those little feet as they strike out. You examine every turn of flesh for precocity, and crow it to the world. But the last one: the baby who trails her scent like a flag of surrender through your life when there will be no more coming after–oh, that’ s love by a different name. She’s the babe you hold in your arms for an hour after she’s gone to sleep. If you put her down in the crib, she might wake up changed and fly away. So instead you rock by the window, drinking the light from her skin, breathing her exhaled dreams. Your heart bays to the double crescent moons of closed lashes on her cheeks. She’s the one you can’t put down.

-Barbara Kingsolver, The Poisonwood Bible

Baby Update

Remember that time I was pregnant and I would post updates almost hourly? Charlotte had a whole book of blog posts before she was even born.

This poor kid is already being neglected, and he’s still attached to me every second of the day.

We had our 20 week ultrasound and anatomy check on Friday (see, it never took me four days to update with Charlotte! Ha!).

Did I mention that we’re having a boy? I feel like we already told everyone that. Thanks to modern technology, we actually knew we had a baby boy about a month ago. But on Friday we got visual confirmation.

And unlike his sister before him, Baby Boy was more than happy to show off his four-chambered heart. We will go back in October for a fetal echocardiogram, but based on Friday’s ultrasound we should get only good news at that appointment. (We are having the echo only because of Charlotte’s CHD, not because there is any reason to think this baby has heart issues.)

The most popular question is whether or not we have a name yet, and as of right now, we do not.

Sam’s pick is Daniel, and Charlotte’s pick is Jackie.

We’ll see.

If anyone is interested (looking at you, grandparents), here is the link to our Amazon registry. I feel weird having a baby registry for a third child, but we got rid of every. baby. thing. The smallest clothes we have are a size 3t. I did find a dresser/changing table at an antique store in town, and a crib on Craigslist, so we are set with the major furniture.

Thankfully there has been a baby boy boom at our church, so there should be plenty of baby boy clothes to be passed on to us.

I think that’s it!

Change of Plans

So, it looks like I won’t be losing weight this summer after all.

Ha ha.

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We went in yesterday for a fancy ultrasound. It turns out you get all kinds of special treatment when you already have one child with a birth defect.

Everything looked great! I will go back in September for the big anatomy check (Come on four chambers! And two ventricles!) and then in October for a fetal echo to make sure this little one isn’t taking after his/her big sister in the heart department.

I am 12 weeks along, and our due date is January 31.

And yes, this baby is about as big of a surprise as they come, but I am told those are the best kind.